My shameful secret I remember my overwhelming feeling being one of shame. How had I allowed myself to get into this situation? This was quickly followed by anger at myself and then a sense of blind fear and panic at what would happen if this got out? My reputation would be trashed. I’d thought I’d managed to cover my tracks but my behaviour was becoming increasingly erratic.
A partner's story Finding out the true extent of my husband’s problem with prescription painkillers, when he broke down in tears and confessed everything, was one of the worst days of my life. It felt like a massive kick to the stomach and, crazily, I remember thinking “why can’t he have just had an affair, that would be easier to deal with!”